MY HEARTBREAK by Emma Hillman (6-10-18)

I’ve never been good at being alone. I don’t feel at home.

Everything feels foreign. Life is so boring. 

Without you I’m not myself. Life’s like pulling a random book from a shelf.

You never know what you’ll get. My face is always wet. 

Tears haunt me every night. They explode from my eyes like dynamite. 

Tried to fill the void. It feels like my life is destroyed. 

I don’t feel like myself. Nothing feels heartfelt. 

Even with everyone around me at home. I feel alone.

How can it be gone forever? This was never supposed to happen, ever. 

You were my first at everything. for me it wasn’t just a fling. 

i was in love with you with all my heart and now its falling apart.

I tell myself i’m over you. That the plan i made didn't fall through.  

I just want someone to talk to. You don’t have a clue. 

You hurt me so bad. I can’t even be mad. 

Things got hard and i was a discard.

I gave up on me. So you gave up on thee. 

You were supposed to be there through it all. Instead you just watched me fall.